I don't like my mother, is that normal?

I wouldn't say hate, but I really don't like my mother. She makes me sick to my stomach, and I am embarrassed that she is my mother. I am a grown man, but can't get over the negative feelings which enhance with time. My father died when I was young and you would think that my well being would be her biggest concern...,,,wrong. She was remarried within two years and devoted all her time worrying about my step-dad, and her position amongst the inner circle of her pathetic so called friends. She has called me a loser, accused me of molesting neighbor, use to listen to my phone calls, conversations and read notes out of sheer boredom. She threw a plastic bat at me and hit me in front of dozens of people, has slapped me in the face causing a bloody nose because I was blunt and told her she wasn't happy with herself. She used money that was left from my dad for me, as her personal bank. She stopped receiving after remarrying, yet ended up working less hours and NEVER went food shopping. She was always smug and made asinine, condescending comments. She made vest efforts to stand in my way after wanting to leave a miserable job and get an education, with money left for me, which she spent and had to take out a personal loan. She knows she was an awful parent, and I tried talking to her, but she gets defensive, and tries to get sympathy from her bad upbringing, lame excuse. I know it's not fair to live in the past, but during such formidable years, she did nothing right, and tried to hold me down.